Things are good. I like painting my nails white. I like riding in my friend's ghetto car. I like feeling determined and impassioned. I like knowing  who I am, and what I want in life, and where I want to go even if I don't know the hows.

 I feel good and happy and confident for the first time in years.

God bless antidepressants.



I also like a boy with blue eyes and warm hands, who makes me laugh at a godforsaken hour in the morning .  I try not to think about it because I don't want to seize up and not talk and get totally awkward around him.

Home, finally, after nine straight days of being away. I missed my mom's hugs, my chair and my parakeet, but I had a lot of fun.

Yay,  for three days with my momma  and talkingto her at three in the morning til eight. Yay, for sunny days at the beach, warm sand under my toes, and salty, disconcertingly fishy, air, sunburnn that tans, just a block from my bed. Yay  for four days with my brother, sister, and her awesome friends, the worst foods I could ever eat,  hurricanes that eat the beach  and  make bodysurfing a blast, as well as the prettiest clouds I've ever ever seen.

Yay, for long road trips through mounatainous green Pennsy  mountains with my sister  who talked like an angry man from Brooklyn, a Floridian marveled by mountains, and somone from Seattle who comes up with the most hilarious, but unexpected oneliners. Yay, for TomTom.

Yay for whitewater rafting, and hot guides who are wet and shirtless. Yay for hot rafters who may not be shirtless but are also wet, and the guys in raft 120. Yay, for restaurants in renovated powerhouses, for finally being peached colored, for having a marvelous time, the town of Jim Thorpe and its cute little shops like that great alternative place with its  handwritten signs and cool owner and SWORDCANES, and that great little secondhand book shop. Yay, for being home.

Not yay, for torn nails, 30 mile detours, the New yorkers in raft 107, and not having  enough money to buy stuff.

Overall a fun time was had by all.

I've stuck myself yet again,  in a cycle of sleep and websurfing. Blegh. I  must change this before I feel too lazy. I shall start tommorrow.

 
My  planned schedule for  summer includes late mornings that turn into even later lazy days, spent in the hammock reading and dozing .  Its a long day on the beach , the sand under my fingers and toes,  and  the sun burning white spots into my eyelids. Salt water in my mouth  the white wash of waves pulling at my hair, and gentle pink sunburn that turns to peach. The sun at my back  while I ride my bike in the mornings, grass under my feet, sunsets over friend's fields, picnics on soft blankets, and all the time good books, music and movies.  I can hear nights filled with  music and dancing. My skin will burn, my fingers will grow sore  from knitting and sewing, my legs will ache, my throat will be dry,  and my mind will grow warm and twisted from the stress of discovery and recreation.

For School:

1. Study for Math test tommorrow
2. Study for Chem quiz
3. Write serial killer paper
4. Study for math Midterm- do review packet
5. Finish English test afterschool
6. Do ch6 Chem quiz
7. Do 5.4-5.8 Math quiz
8. Get makeup history work and notes from connor

Personal:
1.Watch some movies.,
2. Finish "Fairytales" by Hesse
3. Read library books
4. FINISH KNITTING BAG
5. Start going back to gym(try a class too)
6. Listen to some great tunes
7. Start drawing again
8.  Do a calligraphy painting
9.  Practice guitar
10. Practice singing
11. Go back to being a vegetarian again
12.  Sew some pretty things!
13.  Get some new Lj icons
14.  Start back at shadow equestrian

So I feel much better but mother refuses to allow me to do anything . "If you go into the cold you'll DIE!"

Well that's an exaggeration, but I haven't been to Shadow in two weeks, I won't be going this week, I missed a Quixote Quest meeting, and a week of school. I'm going nuts, I'm so stircrazy. I mean, earlier I was thinking ,"Hmm, I miss school". Fuck What! I  mean what the hell is that!Who thinks that? AND I  haven't been to the gym in forever, and I feel awful.

This is officially the week of sucketh.


Anyway  I warn those who know me . I'll be in "gettin' down to business" mode once my schedule gets to normal. I feel like doing lots off crap. Prepare to be amazed.

 

I can't figure out BitTorrent. I is frusrated.

House and  Nirvana get me through my daily workouts.

I'm currently in my room on my NEW laptop at 3 am. Hellz yeah bitches!

'Kay, I go sleep now.

"I'm gonna have to kill a bitch..." http://www.news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081106/ap_on_el_ge/gay_marriage

PSATs ruined my weekend . I spent my whole Saturday sleeping an watching tv because I had to wake up so early.

Gah.

Marshall's Officially sucks. Since I am not allowed to work weeknights I asked If I could have a Friday- Saturday- Sunday schedule.

I can't, so now I'm out of a job and poor.

Pllbbt.

I'm fairly sure I'm hired at Marshall's. But I need working papers first, so I'll see if I can go tomorrow. Other than that I've been sitting at the computer at folding origami, playing my guitar, and knitting a bag. Now I want to make amigurumi, because they are sooooo adorable, but one thing at a time.

Other than that nothing going on.

Oh I'm also fairly sure Citizen Snips is no more. Two nights ago the little shit unscrewed the top of his cage and escaped. I tore up the bedrooms looking for him but I can't find the bugger. Oh well, if the little bitch dies it's his own damn fault.

Though it kinda sucks 'cause I begged mom to let me get  a lovebird because they're sweet,  pretty, small, and pretty, and  the only other pet I could get, and she said if I got a job and if I took care of Citizen Snips I could, annnd ...

I think I'm kind of screwed on the latter.

Interview with Marshall's this upcoming Friday!

I have overcome my fear of being in the ocean on the beach and what not. I went today with my mother,her friend, her friend's son, and my cousin. It was was just wonderful. The ocean water was freezing but is was still great, the sand, the sun, the water ice , ice cream, and sandwiches were heavenly.I'd write more but I am very tired.



I have a souvenir.  I call him Citizen Snips.

BEWARE!

He's wandering my floor now . I must find him.

I feel much better. Much, much better. It's weird reallly. I wake up in the morning and instead of 'crap' it's 'wow, it's very sunny out two-day'.Lately I've actually been doing things. Like cooking and baking! I've made Banana bread! Chocolate chip cookies! Quiche lorraine! Manicotti! Poundcake!

And playing the guitar! And reading!

Things I want to do:

Screenprint t-shirts
Sew clothing
Go thrifting
Buy some cds
Buy some movies
Find a secondhand bookstore, buy books
See about getting a french penpal
Make candles
Make soap
Re-join Quixote Quest
Vocal lessons

Places to go:

Philly
New York
Hoboken


The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicise those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.


1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6. The Bible
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
37. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
38. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
39. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
40. Animal Farm - George Orwell
41. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
42. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
43. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
44. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
45. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
46. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
47. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
48. Lord of the Flies - William Golding
49. Atonement - Ian McEwan
50. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
51. Dune - Frank Herbert
52. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
53. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
54. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
55. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
56. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
57. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
58. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
59. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
60. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
61. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
62. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
63. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
64. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
65. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
66. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
67. Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
68. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
69. Moby Dick - Herman Melville
70. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
71. Dracula - Bram Stoker
72. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
73. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
74. Ulysses - James Joyce
75. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
76. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
77. Germinal - Emile Zola
78. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
79. Possession - AS Byatt
80. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
81. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
82. The Color Purple - Alice Walker
83. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
84. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
85. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
86. Charlotte's Web - EB White
87. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
88. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
89. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
90. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
91. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
92. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
93. Watership Down - Richard Adams
94. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
95. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
96. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
97. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
98. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Alas they have alluded me. I thought oh hey Calah's party will be fun, but it wasn't. I hardly new anybody and I wanted to dance ,but I was a afraid to. And it wasn't like I even had anyone to dance with. So yeah, every time I think something good will happen, nope no not for me.
God hates me.

Dee came by last night, and she was there when I got home from the movies, It was a little awkward at first but through the night, things settled into normal . I'm glad because this time I think things will work out for the best.In any case she seems a lot happier and that's good. So ,yay, reconciling with family is good. Especially if it's your older sister.

Some other stuff:

1. I trimmed my own hair. I wanted to make it not so blah.It didn't come out half bad. Maybe I'll post a picture when I straighten it tonight.

2. Calah's Party is tonight I'm a little apprehensive. Social events aren't my bag. But what the hell, maybe I'll have fun.

3. Me+Nicholle+Movies+Photobooth=Jocularity! (You know I so looked that up on Dictionary.com)

I gotta call Nat now. And then get ready. Because it's two in the afternoon, I woke up and twelve, and I'm still in mah PJ's.

Toodles,

Krystal

I got an e-mail from Frank asking if I was done with Quixote Quest. I'm not, but I can understand why. I didn't go to the only quarter meeting this month, didn't attend the thanksgiving dinner, didn't do any GSPs, and didn't volunteer a single lick.  While the last is the stupid lady's fault for not being organized I probably should've done something this month. Though in part, I didn't want to do the GSP because they were also asking for donations and I would've felt bad not bringing any  considering my parents are only willing to fork out so much for charity, since we only have so much. Keep in mind this is a pressure created by my mind. How wonderfully neurotic I am!

Oh, and I realized why I feel odd going to these things. Most of the kids while  kind and considerate, come from mostly rich schools. Not like RICH  Rich but they have money. So I dunno inferiority complex.

And I can't find anything on the authors of my story for the english project so bullshit aho!


Other things:

It's cold.
I need to start the Very Merry Crafty Christmas.
i feel bad because for the english projectit's like I'm doing no work. Everyone latched on to something intially so it's not my fault but I still feel I should be doing more. Oh well. I'll make it up with the Halloween project ; ).
Today was the first day I didn't fall asleep in science class.
French with Brian, Wally, Elyse, and the gang is fun.
Jessica my partner for my Drama class is nice to work with.  Especially compared to some of the others in that class. And damn do I want some of her clothes. They are to die for. I have our skit almost memorized. I also hope I get a chance to work with Cianna and Andreana. I watched them rehearse their skit and they're pretty good.
I'm looking forward to the rest of the day. Books, knitting, music, dancing, and writing. A quaint evening indeed.
AZ was cute in his t-shirt today. Stupid me for not moving in closer when he said "cover me up it's freezing". Instead I start arguing about something stupid. I'm pathetic and smitten.

A Bientot!

Krystal